Innoncence

When I am feeling down, I tend to ruminate on things I don't like about myself--speciific things i've done that have hurt peoples feelings, specific actions I've taken that have been unkind, selfish, or insensitive, words that have served no good purpose... I get angry at myself.

I remember times in childhood when I seemed so innocent. No ulterior motives. No snide remarks. No looking down at people because I thought a different way. Or they think like I used to. Hah.

Vain, jealous, angry, pompous, stuck-up, exlusionary, dogmatic, rigid, blah, blah, blah. Self -righteous.

AGGHH. Yuck. Groan.